week 7

The day he left was a very bad day and this past Thursday was hard as well. For the past 5ish weeks he has been in New Jersey.  Even though I missed him, I knew he was in the USA.  I knew that I could pick up the phone and call or text him at any moment.  I knew that the time zone was only an hour ahead of me.  We talked several times a day, Face Timed and sent many texts back and forth.  Almost a week ago he made his way to Qatar and from there he has headed to Afghanistan.  Even though I knew that the call from him was coming saying that he got his flight and he's headed out, it hit me hard. He was only able to give me a 4 hour notice before his flight left. I knew it was coming?  I was expecting it.  Why was I taking this so hard? I was scared that he was no longer in the states and now he was going to be 10 hours ahead of me, I wouldn't be able to just pick up the phone and call him.  I knew that when I talked to him now I had to watch my words and there are some things we could/could not talk about, questions he's not allowed to answer over the phone and even the simplest of questions regarding him he is not allowed to talk about.  That puts a damper on our phone calls.  I like to know what's going on and where he's going and what he's doing etc.. but some things I can't know and its just aggravating.  It makes me feel out of the loop in his life and I dont like that feeling.

My girls have been incredible this week.  They have helped me and given me a lot of hugs and kisses. I am thankful for them.  Thank you girls for loving on your momma more this week. 





Enjoy your family~